Day 129: If My Playlists Reveal What Mood I'm In, I'm Mostly Pissed but in the Mood for a Sexy Dance

After design, art, and other things, Music is one of my favorite things.

("Music is My Hot Hot Sex" by CSS, pretty much describes my love for music)

Which means I have a lot of songs,encompassing several genres and time periods. 

and because I have a chronic case of musical ADD, meaning that one moment I may be listening to jazz and then have a sudden urge to listen to heavy metal, I try to organize my songs to whatever I feel like listening to. 

However, I noticed that I really don't give it too much thought when I name these playlists...

Here are the playlists that I have on my itunes.

1) Angry

2) Really Angry

3) Dance Mix

4) Ultimate Dance Mix

5) Sexy Dance Mix

6) Hip Hop

7) Fight Song

8) Why Can't I Sing Like These People

9) Relax

This is actually rather embarrassing, but hey, I think I've subjected myself to worse ridicule than this...(wtf...sexy dance mix? when the heck did I make that..)

I just noticed today that I don't have a 'Happy' Mix or something like that.

I thought that perhaps my dance mix was my unofficial 'Happy' playlist, but wanting to get up and dance is different than feeling happy..I think.

So I decided to make my 'Happy' playlist..today, by going through all my songs and just listening to the ones that I remember made me feel happy, bring back really great memories for me or make me happy just singing along off-key to.

Some of them are pretty embarrassing in my opinion..but hey, like I have said before. If it makes you happy, who cares what anyone else thinks

and so, here they are:


Ventura Highway - America

 Around the Bend - The Asteroids Galaxy Tour

 I Believe in a Thing Called Love - The Darkness

What You Won't Do For Love DZ Remix - Bobby Caldwell

Satellite - Guster

Float On - Modest Mouse

Empire Ants - Gorillaz

Dull Life - Yeah Yeah Yeah's

Young Wild Hearts - Noisettes

 Always - Stevie Wonder

 American Pie - Don Mclean

 The Book I Write - Spoon

 Band on the Run - Paul McCartney and the Wings

 Qui de Nous Deux - M

 Chariot - Gavin Degraw

Do You Want To - Franz Ferdinand

8th Wonder - Lemon Demon

Photobooth - Death Cab for Cutie 
(good times, good times)

Dim Sum Girl - Notorious M.S.G

Four Winds - Bright Eyes

Get Down Tonight - KC and the Sunshine Band

Get Up Offa That Thang - James Brown

Hello Its Me - Todd Rundgren

Duncan - Paul Simon

Hotel California - The Eagles

Dance Dance - Doug

Moondance - Van Morrison

A-Punk - Vampire Weekend

There are a lot more songs than this, but...I think it'd be overkill to add all of them. But you get the idea. (I'm beginning to see that its mostly songs from the 70's that makes me smile)


I'm glad I took the time to make this playlist. After listening to these songs, I feel a bit better. 


I hope it made you feel better too. 

Day 126: Running in the Rain

I suppose you're wondering where I've been or what i've been up to.

I'd like to know that as well...


I can't remember anything that didn't involve my normal daily routine. 


I do know that I was working on a competition, sold my soul to it and became a CAD monkey and Rhino junkie. (Wait...i'm already these things)

The stress of it building up to this week, my mental capacity nothing but giggle fits and ctrl-Z, among other keyboard shortcuts.


Working for a couple of hours each night in the city, commuting home at 12, then working some more can make a person a bit crazy.


This left me little time to actually write about things that didn't involve some angst brought on by crashing OS's, R/U values, tall buildings, and other technical difficulties. And i'm sure you really wanted to read that.


I started hating what I was doing, questioning my abilities as an architectural design student, my life choices, hating computers, why the stupid file wouldn't open,...etc


But this past week was different, maybe it was because I was delusional or just finally cracked under the strain...but I was actually...happy? 


I can't describe it really, this feeling that I had. Maybe it was knowing that this competition would be over soon, or that whenever I finished rendering or making these images, I was actually proud of the finished product. 


Traveling home each night was almost like a meditation session. The commute is much quieter as there aren't as many tourists and people around. I spent most of my time staring out the window, thinking, watching the lights of the city become smaller as I traveled further away from it, looking as though it was a part of another galaxy.


It was a very different feeling than the angst i'd feel during the commute.


My thoughts during this time were mainly nostalgic and at the same time hopeful about the big changes I knew would be occurring soon. 


Maybe this feeling wasn't actually happiness, but more like peace. 


There is/was a lot of anger in my heart, but a lot of love as well.


and I thought I had lost that side of me. 


Yesterday was the last day of the competition. The prints and the cd of the project had to be postmarked that day and sent out. When my partner and I were finally done, we only had 7 minutes (yes 7) to get to the post office from 14th street to 31st. The post office closed at ten o'clock at night. Things definitely got crazy leaving my partner's finger bleeding and myself with a large bruise from falling down halfway on the stairs.


As I bolted out the taxi, I tossed my umbrella onto the sidewalk because I couldn't hold onto it, I ran in the cold rain clutching the giant tube with our posters, up the million steps to the post office.


I found myself laughing, not the crazy laugh that my colleagues would usually hear each night in the computer lab, 


but a laugh that made me feel alive. 


(So hopefully these days, now that i'm free from all this headache, i'll write about things that don't involve my woes, i'm getting tired of it actually)