Day 84: I'm Still Here.

Hey there, 

I haven't completely dropped off the face of the earth.

I have been posting, in case you were wondering,  but my posts are set on private at the moment.

Its been a long week.

I had a hard time focusing on writing anything that didn't deal with what I was feeling at the time. 

I would just sit in front of the laptop, trying to think of any topic besides my pain.

But, I really couldn't.

I just wanted to hide.

It was hard to function.

Its weird feeling like with each step you take, you're about to fall...when you're not.

And in a way, I felt as though I had fallen.

But when you hit rock bottom, all you gotta do is get right back up right?

But I couldn't do it alone. 

I don't know where I could have been without my friends. I don't know how I could have gotten back up. 

You were the ones to lift me me up and start functioning again.

I'm tearing up now, because its hard to think how...difficult it would have been to deal with this on my own. You all saved me. 

And I don't know how to express that gratitude. I feel that theres only so much words can do.

but

Thank you...I love you.

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Right now, i'm not sure if I want to make those posts public. Perhaps when I feel I am in a much better part of my life, I will.

But you'll see me posting now, I haven't quit just yet!