Day 7: Mind, Body and...Bowels? (Bunnies Included)

I can't believe its been a week since I started this blog.
and to be quite honest, I thought I would stop after day 4 or so. I thought that this idea was only the product of a sleep deprived, mind of a crazy girl.

I thought about what I should write about...and I thought I should share...one..of the most embarassing moments of my life. I never told this to anyone. How can I initiate a conversation on this topic in the first place? Heck, I'm even having trouble writing about this..

I don't know If I should..haha..
But..its been 9-10 years since this...horrible..incident happened. After several years of healing...

I think I can talk about it now...

(i'm totally going to regret this later)

What am I talking about, you might ask.

Lets just say it involves the most fascinating part of the body.

The Bowels..oh shit here we go..literally.


I have heard that there has been a debate over what controls the body. Our everyday actions.

The Mind?

Don't judge me, I can't draw brains D:
My mom saw this and said I can't draw them because I don't have one..a'hah
.::cries::.

 or the Heart?



Rather than drawing a '<3' I wanted to be more realistic..
I know I failed on this one too D:


Some say its the stomach. Because you get moments when you get so hungry that you can't even think about doing anything else, until you satisfy that 'voice' in your gut.

This may be true. But in all honesty...from personal experience...the most powerful force that can control your mind, body, etc in a matter of seconds...is the

It happened when I was about 12 or so. My parents thinking that I needed more Korean friends in my life, made me go to this youth group trip that their friends church was having.

They dropped me off at that church and found out that this youth group trip was to Queens. They were planning to see Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone and then have dinner afterwards at this church there.

I was so shy around this time. Like painfully shy. I sat next to this girl on the bus, who in my mind looked like what a "cool asian girl" should look like.

I wanted to look 'cool' as well. I didn't want to look like a total loser in front of this girl. I had such happy hopes when I sat on the bus, I thought how awesome life was going to be, heck, I was going to watch Harry Potter damnit.

...Little did I know..that this would be...probably the most agonizing 2-2 1/2 hours of my life..

so far..heh

I hate how bowels work sometimes..they're really calm one moment

then..I start to feel something is going on.

It can't be..not now, not in the bus...on the highway. Especially when there isn't going to be any pit stops.

I ignored it, "It'll go away if I ignore it right?"

Unfortunately...That doesn't always work.

Then..it happens.

It hits me, like someone sticking a bigass needle into my gut..The pain is unbearable..I know what needs to be done, but I don't want to go to the bathroom in the back because if you spend too much time in there...people are gonna suspect something..I thought I'd look so uncool
And I can't ask them to stop the bus...

I started to make promises..(it was like I was about to die)

(I say Mexican food, because I remember I ate a burrito from a Mexican food truck near my parents store that my dad got me the day before..I blame my horrible experience on that demon burrito from Hell.)

Music...yea...Music will help me..WRONG. The Bowels can still scream in your ears.

"I'll look out the window, yea! i'll focus on the view..."

The whole world was mocking me.

Then it started messing with me when we got stuck in a traffic jam. I KID YOU NOT.

It was agonizing...I wanted to jump out and be free among the bushes, so to speak..

I start talking to God.

Just when about to just 'let go' of my pain, we stop, we're at the theater!

There was a Wendy's right next to it.

At that moment, It was the most magnificent thing I've ever seen. An Oasis.. a freakin Greek Temple.

I knew what I had to do. I grabbed my bag, jumped over my seat buddy..

I pushed our youth group leader out of the way

and ran out of the bus...I didn't want to tell her anything.

It was another moment in my life when life when into slow motion..

I felt like Forest Gump..It was that epic.

When it was all over,  I saw my youth group leader standing outside the door. Smiling at me...I knew she knew. We didn't have to say anything..

It was too late to see Harry Potter, so we hung out for awhile, walking around Flushing. We stopped in front of Taco Bell, she said she was hungry and wanted to get something.

Then she asks.."Do you want anything"

HELLLLLLL NOOOOOOOOO

So yea. That was a pretty embarassing moment in my life. It was pretty sad. I didn't get to see Harry Potter nor did I make any friends that day. They ignored me..probably thought I was a really weird kid, with a obsessed love for Wendy's

But its all good, This was 10- 9 years ago. Now I look back at this horrible moment in my life.

and just laugh..

bitterly.

(j/k)

(maybe)